In Vietnam, 30 minutes before sunrise and 30 minutes after sunset set we were on full alert and waiting in case something happened. That's how I feel waiting for news about Mom. It is always on my mind and just below the surface kind of like an itch that I need to scratch.
I was reminded by my good friend, Ken, that sometimes the stop of the waiting is kind of a good thing. Even the bad news is in a way kind of good news. He lost a son-in-law to a battle with cancer and that ripped their hearts for several months near the end.
With my mother, I know it is the natural series of events that some day we all will probably bury our parents. I have several friends and relatives that have buried one of their children. I can't imagine that grief and that hurt. With Mom's life, there is a history of the things we all accomplished with her. We will always have the memories of her and the fun we all had with the family.
Not that many years ago, Barb and I had a full set of grandparents to celebrate with. We are nearing the time when her parents will be what we have left. That transition has been a slow and gradual thing and our hearts have not been asked to absorb more than we can stand.
I am not afraid of death, I just don't want to rush in there. I know that some day all the blessings I have will end, and most of all, I want everyone to know that I have lives a full rich life and I would rather have you put a smile on your face every time you think of me. I know that Mom and I have had that same discussion and she feels the same way.
Better get rolling, miles to go and places to clean.
MUD
MUD, I know that your Mother is not afraid of death either.
ReplyDeleteAnd, she sounds like the kind of lady that was not afraid of "life," as so many are.
You ALL continue to be in our prayers.
Andy & Pam Reeves,
Bossier City, Louisiana
I know what a difficult time this must be for you and your family. It's hard to let go of someone so dear to us, but I don't think we really have to (or should) let go. Your mom will always be with you in your heart. From what you have shared here she is a wonderful lady and will be lovingly remembered by all. I hope when you gather to celebrate her life there will be many stories told, memories shared, and room for some laughter as well.
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